Post by Jason Guy on Sept 16, 2015 20:52:20 GMT
Alright, I know I'm one of the ones who hasn't posted a confessional in a loooong while so I absolutely deserve the slap on the wrist. I've been crazy busy with work starting a new position and getting trained, and haven't had the energy for one of my usual long winded word dumps. Still, there's no excuses and I know I need to pick up the pace with my confessional writing. I'll try my best!
There's another reason why I haven't quite had the energy or reason to write much---this has been a hugely uneventful game so far. It's seriously hitting BB16 levels of stagnant house votes at this point, which is not fun at all. AND on top of that, this cast is still seriously not all that exciting to me. I haven't ~really~ bonded in any super strong interpersonal way with anyone, but find everyone across the board to be kind of vanilla and hard to talk with? Idk, it's been weird.
ALSO: to clarify I don't think I've been some shining star in terms of entertainment or socialization myself. I know that I haven't been the most fun to talk with, the most active, etc. But like....I tried hard at the beginning and everything has gotten just so stagnant that I've lost interest. So by no means am I saying that I am also not boring---I am!
Alright, some quick thoughts on various topics:
1) The Kevin/Da'Vonne vote. Ugh this vote. What pissed me off about this vote was NOT that Day went home. Ultimately, she's such a wild card that I was fine with her going. I said so a million times--that I preferred Kevin to go but was fine with Da'Vonne. My reasoning was that Kevin has the potential to be a better player. If he steps up his social game (which I think he has?) he could definitely be a threat down the road. Day was as easy to read as they come. She tells it like it is. Sure, she's dramatic and all but I'd prefer that to someone who seems like a smarter player. So that was my reasoning. What bothered me about this vote was that Steve & Jace didn't even for a second CONSIDER listening to my opinons (or Britney's---who agreed with me). They literally were just like "I'm voting for Da'Vonne". An alliance should talk things out and come to an agreement not throw out ultimatums and close the discussion. It's insane to me. Also, Jace was VERY worried about pissing off Casey, showing that he's close to Casey and maybe closer than even to our "alliance". I don't know, it all just irked Brit and I and I feel closer to her now.
2) The team swap. I LOVED that the two of us who wanted Kevin out ended up on his team and immune this week. The irony is delicious. Otherwise, the team swap is not all that important. But I finally get to be immune! Yay. Also: I like Kevin. We've been talking more and I enjoy speaking with him. If I won HoH he would no longer be my target (assuming teams go soon), which in my mind proves that he should have gone. He's SMART. But I feel like if maybe I show him some loyalty he'll be the same back. So, we'll see.
3) Steve. Ugh I'm over Steve. I'm over his schtick. I'm over his constant paranoia. The more we talk the more I realize that we just don't really line up taste-wise when it comes to our taste in RTV contestants/Big Brother. Idk, I also think that he was just as turned off by me in the whole Day/Kevin debate as I was him. So I'm kinda not really feeling it. So, yeah. Still, I'm not going to target him anytime soon or anything like that--there's no reason. I doubt he'd come for me over some other people (Nick/Victoria). So....hopefully I start liking him again?
4) Jace. My relationship with Jace is so freaking bizarre. We are still technically a "showmance" but I get this weird feeling of like....him not being genuine with me? I think he thinks he has me in his back pocket and that I know no connections going forward---which...not true. I wouldn't mind taking him out sooner than later--though it would have to be at someone else's hands. I don't know, he's my biggest question mark moving forward.
5) This Week's Vote. Bye Rachel! I don't think I've ever met someone so unaware of how they are being perceived in a game before. Like....you calling people out as floaters after sailing by on team challenge wins? You calling other people nothings? Like....look in a mirror girl. Glad you didn't make jury!
6) My strategy moving forward. My number one strategy right now is STILL social social social. I have good and bad days where I feel good with people (it's constantly shifting), but overall I feel like there are only one or two people who would actively target me (Angie & mayyyybe Caleb). So, yeah.
There's another reason why I haven't quite had the energy or reason to write much---this has been a hugely uneventful game so far. It's seriously hitting BB16 levels of stagnant house votes at this point, which is not fun at all. AND on top of that, this cast is still seriously not all that exciting to me. I haven't ~really~ bonded in any super strong interpersonal way with anyone, but find everyone across the board to be kind of vanilla and hard to talk with? Idk, it's been weird.
ALSO: to clarify I don't think I've been some shining star in terms of entertainment or socialization myself. I know that I haven't been the most fun to talk with, the most active, etc. But like....I tried hard at the beginning and everything has gotten just so stagnant that I've lost interest. So by no means am I saying that I am also not boring---I am!
Alright, some quick thoughts on various topics:
1) The Kevin/Da'Vonne vote. Ugh this vote. What pissed me off about this vote was NOT that Day went home. Ultimately, she's such a wild card that I was fine with her going. I said so a million times--that I preferred Kevin to go but was fine with Da'Vonne. My reasoning was that Kevin has the potential to be a better player. If he steps up his social game (which I think he has?) he could definitely be a threat down the road. Day was as easy to read as they come. She tells it like it is. Sure, she's dramatic and all but I'd prefer that to someone who seems like a smarter player. So that was my reasoning. What bothered me about this vote was that Steve & Jace didn't even for a second CONSIDER listening to my opinons (or Britney's---who agreed with me). They literally were just like "I'm voting for Da'Vonne". An alliance should talk things out and come to an agreement not throw out ultimatums and close the discussion. It's insane to me. Also, Jace was VERY worried about pissing off Casey, showing that he's close to Casey and maybe closer than even to our "alliance". I don't know, it all just irked Brit and I and I feel closer to her now.
2) The team swap. I LOVED that the two of us who wanted Kevin out ended up on his team and immune this week. The irony is delicious. Otherwise, the team swap is not all that important. But I finally get to be immune! Yay. Also: I like Kevin. We've been talking more and I enjoy speaking with him. If I won HoH he would no longer be my target (assuming teams go soon), which in my mind proves that he should have gone. He's SMART. But I feel like if maybe I show him some loyalty he'll be the same back. So, we'll see.
3) Steve. Ugh I'm over Steve. I'm over his schtick. I'm over his constant paranoia. The more we talk the more I realize that we just don't really line up taste-wise when it comes to our taste in RTV contestants/Big Brother. Idk, I also think that he was just as turned off by me in the whole Day/Kevin debate as I was him. So I'm kinda not really feeling it. So, yeah. Still, I'm not going to target him anytime soon or anything like that--there's no reason. I doubt he'd come for me over some other people (Nick/Victoria). So....hopefully I start liking him again?
4) Jace. My relationship with Jace is so freaking bizarre. We are still technically a "showmance" but I get this weird feeling of like....him not being genuine with me? I think he thinks he has me in his back pocket and that I know no connections going forward---which...not true. I wouldn't mind taking him out sooner than later--though it would have to be at someone else's hands. I don't know, he's my biggest question mark moving forward.
5) This Week's Vote. Bye Rachel! I don't think I've ever met someone so unaware of how they are being perceived in a game before. Like....you calling people out as floaters after sailing by on team challenge wins? You calling other people nothings? Like....look in a mirror girl. Glad you didn't make jury!
6) My strategy moving forward. My number one strategy right now is STILL social social social. I have good and bad days where I feel good with people (it's constantly shifting), but overall I feel like there are only one or two people who would actively target me (Angie & mayyyybe Caleb). So, yeah.
